Another weekend

Last week i wanted to donate blood (yes, because of the money but also because Im the hapiest when helping others. Honestly!). But the hemoglobin level was too low :( Now, I have to take iron pills. and of course they make me sick like every pill seems to do. How am I going to take my pills when Im old and need them??? never mind!
What else happend?
Writing one of my four term papers.
This afternoon I´ll go shopping with my friend...just dont think about how broke I really am.
Im home again this weekend. and my parents ordered pizza for lunch. Dont know why, probably too lazy to cook :)My brothers are home of course. Nico seems to be content. Still doesn't know whether he should study medicine or become a teacher like his big siblings. Talk about role models :)
The pizza has arrived, I gotta go :)

Summer

Today, while swimming, I thought about all the reasons why I love summer:

I like...
- the warmth, never having to feel cold
- ice- cream and milkshakes
- being able to swim in the pool while the sun is shining in my face ( I dont like the marks my swimsuit leaves on my skin because I tan while swimming)
- how much easier it is to get up
- wearing T- shirts, shorts, dresses...(all my summer outfits)
- TANNING plus sleeping or reading
- playing tennis
- riding my bike to the lake
- jogging ouside instead of the gym
- going camping
- strawberries
- gong to university by bike
- my annual vacation
- the barbecues
- cold ice tea
- my birthday in August
- all the parties which take place outside
- the fireworks
- being woken by the sun
- the smell of sunscreen
- my princess shoes
- our terrace
- all the flowers, the fresh green grass and the butterflies (if I see one)
- the long days
- picnics
- driving with the window open
- the beautiful sunsets
- walking around barefoot
- studying outside
- the kids playing happily outside
and so much more

somehow I seem to worry so much less during summer, everything appears so much easier. I definitely was born in the wrong country :)

Busy day

Today, I was woken by my bf slamming the refridgerator door. But he had a reason, he made me fresh bread rolls. After breakfast I studied Biology (arg!), then went to the gym(yeah!), ate lunch, went into town to buy a birthday present for my bf's sis and I bought my self a ring :) since my bf wont buy me one.(too expensive,you cant eat it= does not make any sense)Then I cleaned the stairs and did my homework. Now, my bf wants to take me to BK :)

Fun at the pool with my brothers

Today, I went to the pool with my brother :) I cannot remember the last time we did that and it was soooooooo good to just spend time and relax together. Most of the time we just talked. Whenever I talk to him I realize how much we are alike. We share the same values and this is just very comforting. We`ve had hard times together as we grew older and more independent from each other, but the feeling of your common roots is amazing. Whenever I say something they just know what I mean as they went through the same. After lying in the sun for a while, we made sure that nobody knew us and then went on the slides. You should have seen that!!! 2 grown ups on a slide having a blast. We went down on our knees until they hurt just like we did years ago. What a happy day!

Forbidden diaries

Last week my bf got his wisdom teeth removed. Strangely, I had fun taking care of him. Im the happiest when I can help other people or make them happy. Im sad when others are sad.
However, I have to confess something. My mom writes a diary. And I found it lying on the piano two weeks ago. I didnt know what it was until then. And what she wrote didn't let me go. I know I shouldn't have read it, but I couldnt stop the moment I found out what the little notbook was and how sad she is. She complains about her boss, my dad and us kids, mostly the boys. I know its a lot, we could help her more etc. But I really thought that at the end of the day she was happy that she had us. It shocked me that I was wrong. I try to help, but then I don't live at home anymore and am not around too much. She didn't complain about me in her diary. She didnt even mention me in the last three months. Why? I'm a very quiet person, but I try to let her be part of my life. Maybe I don't worry/annoy her that much. But to me it seems she never thinks about me at all. I wish so much I/we could be a joy to her heart. But I don't know what I can do? I try my best (cooking dinner when Im home so she can relax, going shoping for her etc.), but does she even realize it? I love you so much mommy, Im so thankful for everything you did for us, I LOVE YOU forever and no matter what you say or do.