I pray

I had a conversation with a very good friend of mine today. We were talking about everything from university to guys and sports. Of course I talked about all the negative/sad stuff going on with Hendrik and my brother in my life at the moment. She asked me what I did when I feel especially sad. I said I pray. Don't get me wrong; I'm not the kind of person that believes that praying is enough to make everything all right again. But I believe it helps. My friend is not religious at all. And I usually don't talk about my faith except with people I do know believe themselves. But when she asked me about what I did when I felt desperate I gave an honest answer. So she asked what I would do if one day I should find out that there is no God, that Im talking to thin air (not that I would ever find out because I would not revive) My answer to that was that I would still pray because it helps me to feel better and gives me hope. Her reaction to this answer was laughter. She called me a funny person. This HURT. To me this is a serious topic. My answer was not a joke. I still would pray if there was nobody listening to me. I did not know how to react to her laughter as I could not do what I wanted to do which was cry. Faith is a personal topic and even if somebody told me he believed in the holy tree trunk I would not laugh at him because I could imagine that it would hurt this person. Not believing is all right with me, but making fun of somebody because of what he believes is just cruel. Is this what friends do?
How would you have reacted?

My day

Outside my window: The street is settling down, the sun begins to set and the leaves begin to fall

I am thinking: of my friend Jan's birthday party I'll go to in about 90 minutes! Yeah! (will miss Henny though)

I am smelling: nothing

I am thankful: for my family who support me every single day. My best friend Bine and my bf who can be so sweet if he wants. God watching over me :)

I am wearing: Jogging trousers and a sweatshirt (already start missing the T- Shirts)

I am reading: "A love that multiplies" Love the Duggar family! (When does the new season start?)

I am hoping: My best friend and I can really do the biology course we are supposed to do next week next year because it's just tooo much stress right now and it would really be making me feel better.

I am hearing: My brother typing on his laptop (my room is his living room)

My music: silence after a long day of studying and running around

I look forward to: seeing henny more often soon.+ The day after the biology exam

A friend

Since the German weather has decided to leave out the best part of summer, I went to the indoor swimming pool today with my best friend. We have been friends since first grade and even both study biology. How did this happen? After graduating I knew I wanted to do be an English teacher. In Germany you need two subjects. So I searched for another one, first it looked like I would choose Spanish, then I decided on Biology. After our graduation we sat on our porch (nice, warm summer evening back then)and she told me she also wanted to become a teacher, subjects biology and chemistry. During the last three years she has become very ambitious while I somehow lost my motivation ;). This makes it sometimes hard to work together with her as shes a perfectionist. Yet, we are a lot alike. Both of us are rather quiet, love sport and share a lot of our past. She really got into sports a few years ago and now wanted to learn how to swim properly. This is why she asked me to teach her. I happily agreed. And I must say I really enjoyed our afternoon. Also because I could show her something and not the other way around. But most of all I enjoyed her company :)
Enjoy your sunday!