Walking in the rain

I'm busy. I know, I always say that but I really am. I thought this Christmas would be more relaxed because I don't have as much university as I used to in the last years but I somehow always find things to make me busy (work). So, instead of sleeping in this morning I had a biology field trip. I put on my warm pullover and my scarf and head and then walked around in the pouring cold rain for 3 hours (last year we had lots of snow at this time of the year). Lots of fun. Ok, my best friend was with me and we always create fun so it wasn't too bad. Now, since the swimming pool closed for two weeks of intense cleaning, I'll visit the dreaded tread mill and run, then pack my stuff and go home (my parents home). The mentioned friend wants me to go to a party tonight but I'm not sure. I know I'm boring but I'm just tired. If I don't sleep much tonight I'll have to wait another week. Ok,I'll stop talking about sleep, too boring.
Chrismas activities: My mom bought me an advent calendar which consists of 24 little red candles. So, now I light one every day and think about the people I love. Nothing spectacular, but I like it. Hendrik also bought me a chocolate version and I eat lots of gingerbread so I don't miss out on the eating part (How could I?).

Summing up: Nothing new here. I didn't quit my job by the way. My friend convinced me to hang on. Sometimes it's ok and sometimes I stack all these magazines constantly promising myself that this is the last time. We'll see.

Enjoy your weekend!

Exam day

I just came home from my exam. All I can say is that one part went really well, the other didn't... so we'll have to wait, but I'm optimistic :) I'll continue having conversations with God about it.
Now that I'm done with all the studying, I'm super tired but I know I won't be able to sleep if I go to bed now. I don't nap. I usually sleep quite a lot at night and that's it.
My family really cares for me which I love (of course). Last night they all told me to stay calm and now my brother is making my favorite food: noodle caserole (if that's the right translation). My bf's family also wrote me messages :) Made me really happy and I feel more love than I did in quite a while.

Later I'll go to the hairdresser which is really urgent since my hair is a mess and I haven't been at the hairdresser since.... May (???).
I also plan to go shopping the weekend and maybe I'll go to southern Germany for a few days next week. Yeah!
The bad thing is that the nice weather of the last two weeks is gone and fall definitely arrived with all the nice things he has to offer: wind, rain, clouds and cold temperature (I'm alreday done with that :) )

Have a nice weekend! What are your plans????

Things to be thankful for

I went to the cinema with Hendrik yesterday. And it was great!!! I held my hand constantly, gave me lots of kisses and so on. He finally was the guy I met almost 5 years ago. Today, when I briefly saw him, he was the same :) He even wants to quit with his fraternity which would be great since they had such a bad influence on him.
Additionally, the girl he kissed and has been stalking (literally stalking) him ever since is not allowed to get near him (we had to go to court, because it got ugly).

My hard core biology studying is going great as well. I feel like I might actually pass this exam.

I got the job I apllied for!

Summer is back:) All summer i was complaining about the low temperatures. Now, it seems to me like summer just decided to be in spring and autumn this year.

Only great news today! :) :) :)

My day

Outside my window: The street is settling down, the sun begins to set and the leaves begin to fall

I am thinking: of my friend Jan's birthday party I'll go to in about 90 minutes! Yeah! (will miss Henny though)

I am smelling: nothing

I am thankful: for my family who support me every single day. My best friend Bine and my bf who can be so sweet if he wants. God watching over me :)

I am wearing: Jogging trousers and a sweatshirt (already start missing the T- Shirts)

I am reading: "A love that multiplies" Love the Duggar family! (When does the new season start?)

I am hoping: My best friend and I can really do the biology course we are supposed to do next week next year because it's just tooo much stress right now and it would really be making me feel better.

I am hearing: My brother typing on his laptop (my room is his living room)

My music: silence after a long day of studying and running around

I look forward to: seeing henny more often soon.+ The day after the biology exam

New Age (HOPE)

There is some new hope in my heart. I don't know why, but for the first time I feel like I might be able to pass biology in october (prayers wanted). I don't abolutely dread studying biology every single day anymore. I know that this will end in two and a half weeks and I will be able to move on. Which means that I will go back to my apartment. I really miss the privacy and the quiet there. Here it is always loud. Somebody is constantly entering my room without knocking. But most of all I miss Henny. I miss to just talk for hours and hours. I miss getting hugs and kisses. I miss waking up beside him....sometimes I even miss the chaos:). I hope this all works out. Like I said I believe we are meant to be together (forever). This afternoon we will go to a very nice indoor pool (summer is ofically over). I look forward to that and I will try really hard to focus on the positive things. I will NOT scold him for everything he does wrong (Im not his mom). I will make it a great day.

The vacation I had planned with three of my friends is not going to happen :(. The two girls cannot come and Im not going on a vacation with a guy alone. This does not feel right as long as I have a boyfriend.

Hope you have a great day!
Smile!

Greek dinner

Yesterday I went out for dinner with Henny. We went to a lovely greek place and got one meal free beacuse of the coupons we have (should have gotton both meals free because of the money Greece coasts Europe right now :)). I enjoyed the evening very much. We got to talk a lot and even cuddle a bit. Henny is very worried about the future and afraid of the girl he kissed since she stalks him. She sends him letters and other stuff and threatens me on fb. I wish she just left us alone!
Henny is very sad to be alone in the flat but we both know its for the best. I miss my flat as well..... and my gym and my flowers. I look forward to going back.
My days are mostly spend working on biology and this won't cahnge until the seventh of october. Please pray that I don't fail. I never failed so far but Im always scared of it.
Maybe Henny and I will go on a vacation then. Which would be awesome since I miss the sun already.Originally I wanted to go with two of my friends. But one of them cannot get off at work and the other one is a guy and Im not going on a vacation alone with a guy as long as I have got a boyfriend.

September

My least favorite month! Summer is winding down and what lies ahead is a seemingly endless winter. The days get shorter and Im honestly not used to living in the dark again. Im used to the sun going to bed after me and getting up before me.
Septembers usually mean Im studying for some kind of Biology exam. Usually it was didactics, this time it is microbiology. Sounds bad and is even worse. So, September means adjusting to cooler weather, being stuck in the house to STUDY all day because university has not started yet. Its good to get out of the house at some point during the day. I usually do some kind of sport every day. Still, I hate it. Please let it be March soon!

Now, I really have to get started with my f.... biology!

What's September like for you?

A friend

Since the German weather has decided to leave out the best part of summer, I went to the indoor swimming pool today with my best friend. We have been friends since first grade and even both study biology. How did this happen? After graduating I knew I wanted to do be an English teacher. In Germany you need two subjects. So I searched for another one, first it looked like I would choose Spanish, then I decided on Biology. After our graduation we sat on our porch (nice, warm summer evening back then)and she told me she also wanted to become a teacher, subjects biology and chemistry. During the last three years she has become very ambitious while I somehow lost my motivation ;). This makes it sometimes hard to work together with her as shes a perfectionist. Yet, we are a lot alike. Both of us are rather quiet, love sport and share a lot of our past. She really got into sports a few years ago and now wanted to learn how to swim properly. This is why she asked me to teach her. I happily agreed. And I must say I really enjoyed our afternoon. Also because I could show her something and not the other way around. But most of all I enjoyed her company :)
Enjoy your sunday!