Today I am happy because the sun shines. I am happy because Hendrik gave me a braclet and really tries hard to be the person again he onces was. For the first time in months (since that horrible day in September to be exact) I KNOW that Hendrik does not cheat on me anymore. I always had doubts because he still spent a lot of time with his friends. The ones I think have a bad influence on him. During the last weeks he stopped and is home more or at work (where I can call him). I did not know how hard the road I planned to travel was back in September. I thought I could immeadiately trust him again. FAIL! And yes, I would do it again. He's there to support me when I'm crying because life breaks my heart. He tries to help me when he can. And he constantly tries to hug or kiss me which I cannot allow because I need this high security fence around me to feel safe. Love means you are vulnerable which is something I cannot be, believe I cannot be. Every night I pray for my heart to find some peace which it sometimes finds for minutes. The rest of the day I'm struggling. I'm scared what might happen next. I don't want to complain. I know that life could be a lot harder, but your life and your job is always the hardest, right?
I'm happy because I might have found the solution to my term paper problem. The one about kingship in the Middle English romances where there is almost no literature about. Yeah! I had a dissertation on a mikrofilm come to my university. Now I have to spend hours with an ancient machine, similar to a slide projector, and scan the pages which might take days. But still, I have a solution.
I'm happy because I do not have to work today which leaves me more time for my university stuff and this might mean I could get some things done (if I finally leave the computer that is).
I'm happy because after going to the gym Henny will stay home and we will go out to drink some cocktails. After this I'll probably totally happy because Henny will be his old self (he always is when his stupid friends are not there) and afterwards I might be able to fall asleep quickly. Now, I'll have to get started with my work for university otherwise the day off will lead to nothing but cocktails.
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Wednesday, 18 January 2012
Monday, 12 December 2011
My weekend
On Friday I went home to enjoy my weekend with my family. First I tutored some kids and then came home just to relax. I don't remember exactly what I did, but I went to bed rather early and sleept almost 11 hours (I must have been tired).
On Saturday I tutored the same kids again. They are all writing tests at school this week. Then I went home to do some work for university, had lunch with my family, then got some more work done. In the evening Henny came to my hoemtown so we got to hang out together. First we had a Döner (german- turkish very delicious creation) and then went to the place (the swimming pool parking lot :) ) where we first kissed. Very romantic! We even went to Mc Donald's to eat ice- cream. Just like in the old times :)I went to bed very happy.
On Sunday I ordered some christmas gifts. I somehow ordered all of them online this year. I have almost everything but I cannot decide what I want to get Hendrik. Any tips? Then I read some txts for a term paper I have to write. Anyone has a clue about kingship in Middle English Romances? Nobody?! Ok, so this is going to be funny. Due Dec 31. Merry Christmas :)In the evening I went back to Giessen and watched a TV show about the past year. I love these shows and look forward to watching them every single year. Henny came back from work (he's a workaholic) around 10 pm and we went to bed around midnight.
Today (monday) my Grandma is turning 90. I went back home to eat cake with her and on Saturday the celebrations will continue.
On Saturday I tutored the same kids again. They are all writing tests at school this week. Then I went home to do some work for university, had lunch with my family, then got some more work done. In the evening Henny came to my hoemtown so we got to hang out together. First we had a Döner (german- turkish very delicious creation) and then went to the place (the swimming pool parking lot :) ) where we first kissed. Very romantic! We even went to Mc Donald's to eat ice- cream. Just like in the old times :)I went to bed very happy.
On Sunday I ordered some christmas gifts. I somehow ordered all of them online this year. I have almost everything but I cannot decide what I want to get Hendrik. Any tips? Then I read some txts for a term paper I have to write. Anyone has a clue about kingship in Middle English Romances? Nobody?! Ok, so this is going to be funny. Due Dec 31. Merry Christmas :)In the evening I went back to Giessen and watched a TV show about the past year. I love these shows and look forward to watching them every single year. Henny came back from work (he's a workaholic) around 10 pm and we went to bed around midnight.
Today (monday) my Grandma is turning 90. I went back home to eat cake with her and on Saturday the celebrations will continue.
Thursday, 14 April 2011
University
University started on monday although I only had semester breaks for 3 days because of my training. Now, university has started and Im doing my semester break. Im just not ready to return. Last year I did the same after my training and suddenly it was exam time again.
What happened so far? I have mondays off :), on tuesday I changed one of my biology classes, yesterday I worked a bit on biology and today Ive been in university since 10 o'clock but the prof only talked for 10 minutes in my first class and now I have another class which will be about the same. Hope I can be home by 3 o´clock :) Maybe I can go to the gym with my bf if he finally returns...
What happened so far? I have mondays off :), on tuesday I changed one of my biology classes, yesterday I worked a bit on biology and today Ive been in university since 10 o'clock but the prof only talked for 10 minutes in my first class and now I have another class which will be about the same. Hope I can be home by 3 o´clock :) Maybe I can go to the gym with my bf if he finally returns...
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